So, today has been good :) Actually, this weekend has been really fun. It is so gorgeous out, and I actually finally got to the beach for the first time this summer. Now I finally have a little color on my face. In some ways, I am learning that it would be neat to work at a church, because while you are working I've learned so much about God. There are really some neat people out there. I think it takes a lot of courage to open up and be honest about yourself, and I admire people I've talked to for that. I have been realizing lately my need to work on forgiveness. There are sometimes I feel I am bitter toward certain people, and I want to get rid of that. It is easier for me to ask God to help me to forgive realizing that in forgiveness it doesn't mean the relationships are the same.  hmm, so I am picking up another internship site, but just for some direct contact hours. Sometimes it feels like I won't ever be done with school. But I also think it's easy to get my attitude messed up like and not take advantage of the good stuff that can happen this last month or so. So, that is what I am trying to do. When I'm too negative it just puts a cloud over everything. Anyhow, I am going to find something else to do now.

ok, I feel like listing some new dislikes: that is Gwen Stefani. She's so bizarre, and her music is awful. Anyone who spells out "bananas" in a song more than once is just ridiculous. Also,  I saw The Notebook recently with a friend who was engaged. We were both disturbed, but everyone else seems to think it was great. I think it was cute he loved her even when she couldn't remember him, but her shacking up with her ex while engaged to a really good guy wasn't fun to watch.

I am almost done with my classes!! And maybe another month or so on my internship... In a month I am moving out of my apartment, so weird. I have no idea what God has for me, but I think he wants me to move back to Ohio at least for awhile. I mean, I think it's what I want, too. I do miss my family, just not Ohio really... Friends from college have moved on after we graduated and friends from highschool are neither desireable nor existent so we'll just have to see what happens. I am waiting for the question, "So, have you found a job??" Maybe once I get settled into a job there will be no more annoying questions. After highschool, after college, it's always, "What are you going to do now?" haha, and sometimes you just don't know or you're too tired to care. I am feeling both right now.

I feel like I've been learning so much lately, and I am excited about it. Excited because I think the more I give up the God, the closer to Him I become, but also somewhat resistant because it's hard to give up even the "little sins." And it's so hard to trust God sometimes, but just talking to God about that struggle has made me feel so much better. I feel like God is showing me He is here to take care of me. I've always tried to put things in His place, and while I still struggle, He is teaching me a lot.

I can't believe one of my classes is nearly over... Just two more to go and then  I'm goin' home. It feels so far away though even though it's just a couple of months. I will miss this place mainly because I feel like I've "grown up" here because of school and learning to be somewhat independent. I'm also gonna miss Trinity, my new library co-worker and people from class. And it will be differerent to go from living alone to back with my family! It's weird starting over...